51th Day without You.

Hmm,I woke up quite early today, and hang out with mom to padang tembak. The ventilation of the coffee shop is getting better. Can breathe the fresh air finally. Mom saw her friends, they kept asking me when would I get married. =.= I really don't know how to answer. I think, nobody can predict the age of marriage, when it comes,then that is the one.


Stayed at home whole day,did nothing also...sometimes did think of you,wondered what were you doing there... Miss you very much,but I think missing you is not doing something bad,right? And,I have the right to miss you, although I might still feeling a lil sad in the heart, but I like the feelings of missing you and loving you. You need not to feel frustrated or guilty,I don't request you to be sad or guilty. This is my decision,and I,myself chosen it.


Don't ask me not to love you, you know I can't complete this mission. Perhaps I was being too rational last time, Love is a very strange feeling, I just feel like loving you without any worries. No matter what, even one day you become an evil man,but I know you won't,I'm very sure with this!! I just wish to love you quietly, cause I love you,I love the way you are.

50th Day without You

Didn't do anything in the afternoon,until 6pm, we went to Island Plaza to kacau Pauline. This is only the 2nd time I've been there,the 1st time, I went together with you,and there is the place we had our sweetest memory,on 21st March 08' , I'll never forget it, I think you do the same as me,right? Its always the most beautiful memory between us. =)


After that we went to eat steamboat. Since my lil princess chew hasn't had steamboat for a year time,so tonight we went there. Sigh, my silly friend,you're going to KL for 3 months,I'll be missing you everyday la... T.T *hugs*


We ate a lot,I like the tom yam soup!!!! So nice,but I think its not spicy enough..T.T Last time's one was better... *drooling* I saw wei jie, haha, always got holidays one,flying here and S'pore few times a year. He is a great person I think, wish him all the best in S'pore.

49th Day without You.

The 1st day of 2010,a new year,and I think both of us also should have a new and better life this year. Today I woke up early and got myself prepared,went to the pre-wedding party,I saw many people were there.


Before going to koko's house, yean and I went to bought a present at GAMA. I'm 20 this year,but I still cannot believe I'm already 20. Cause I found I know very lil thing, I'm still like a naive girl,don't know much about the world. Sigh~~~


Seeing people getting married,I suddenly realised we're getting older and faster...soon,we would be 30,40,50.......suddenly fear of getting older. We talked a lots about the life at koko's house, and I just realised the friendship between me and yean has last for 7 years... I'm very happy and glad to have her,cause we talk everything.. =)

48th Day without You

Last night, I stayed up the whole night,couldn't sleep,until this morning only I could fall asleep. I found very suffer of having sleep problems. Since 14th November,I never had a sweet dream. Even I could fall asleep very easily once in a while,I also had quite many nightmares. I didn't know why.


Everyone seems waiting for 2010,and they seemed so excited. However,I was not. Its just a new year,and I didn't hang out with anyone also,sometimes staying at home with mom is better,I found myself had some changes compared to the past. Perhaps,I'm getting older,and think too much.


Today is the last day of 2009,a new year is coming soon,it indicates that we should let it go and welcome the new one,right? I wish I could do as what most people say,perhaps,I really I lay you down. Yea,I think I can. As you said, you will accept,and I'll learn to accept.


Perhaps, I shouldn't disturb you anymore. I'm here to say thanks,for being around me,caring me,supporting me and loving me a long the way,at least,I have ever been the girl you loved the most in your life,I'm contented and I shall be glad and grateful. Perhaps after 10 years,when you recall me,you might think this relationship is childish or rediculous,but,for me, it will never be like this. This relationship,between you and me,is the best present granted to me, and I'm here to say,every decision and everything I have done for you was not doing on impulse, cause now only I know, what is LOVE in this life.Even next life, I'll choose to be with you again if I'm fated to be so suffer again,cause I love you.
And I'm so sorry to make you mad and suffer during this period,sorry. You might still drop by and say hi to me if you want,and I'll always remember every single word you told me,I wish you could remember too.


May you and your family live healthy and happily,take care,Ken.


I love You.





Love,
seow wei.

46th Day without You.

Today,we went for movie in pranginmall. At first we wanted to watch new moon,for you,its a terrible movie. And actually I like to watch twilight series is not because of the story line which about love stufss,its because the venue,the scenery and the background of the movies. I found it sounds mysterious.However, we didn't get to watch it. Instead,we watched the Bodyguard..,which I wanted to watch together with you actually,since we had nothing to watch,so we were forced to watch.


I bought twistee and ate while watching. I thought of you while watching the movie,cause I knew you will like this movie a lot. They are all good actors,especially your idol, ZHEN ZI DAN. He is really cool and very good in martial arts. And now only i know that he is the martial arts' director of many movies, awesome!!


The story is sad,at the end everybody died. T.T The Chinese had sacrified a lot for their nation,for their life,and I think its worth to sacrifice if I was in the hard time with them. I felt very touched and wanted to cry when the story came to the end, I found I was being a lil patriotic also,haha!!

45th Day without You

I slept until noon this few days...

I don't know why,always feeling the house is silent,so quiet lately. I must switch on the TV everyday once I woke up, cause its quiet until I felt very hard to breathe.

I helped hammies to clean up their house... so sad. I'm very afraid of looking at them or playing with them nowadays... but I wanted to pat them so much,kiss them on their heads...Hammy became very skinny,I'm worried,I'm scared... The feelings are very horrible,I'll not gonna have any pet again...nop. Its sad...

Went to Dewan Sri Pinang to help out of the singing competition last night.It was a special and meaningful competition,all the singers were allowed to sing songs which can encourage others in life. This is the best singing competition I have ever attended. I'm very happy I could help too.

Aimz got a prize... congratss!! Don't be depressed la, you sang to encourage others,but if you are getting depressed,how about those who need your encouragements? You will be doing better in another competition okay? Try to relax, otherwise you would not recover... gambateh!!

Rained very heavily,and we went to eat bak kut teh at roadside... quite good. Don't know whether we would have the chance to eat bak kut teh together again? T.T Got home around 1am, got wet..sigh.... headache some more...you must be having fun with friends... miss you.

Love,

seow wei.

44th Day without You

I just feel sad... you didn't talk tome,ignored me,cause you know what you say would hurt me. But have you ever thought of it,why your words can just hurt me so easily? And why only I'm the one being hurt?

Can't you just talk something others to me? I know sometimes you purposely did something,it hurts me a lot,but I won't get angry...as you know I always being understanding. And I don't know why,I'm always so stupid of being understanding... I just found that no matter what you do,I can't get very pissed off,I don't know why.

Perhaps now,you won't be able to remember anything happy between us anymore,and you won't view my blog anymore,cause it would just remind you how much you've hurt me right? Then all these would make you feel so suffer... don't worry,soon,you will be free.Perhaps,I have drove you crazy...

Perhaps,after many years,when you suddenly recall me,you would feel like hiding in blanket,cause it might be nightmare for you,right? Or,you will still remember I have ever been your wonderful girlfriend before?

You know? I'm also tired already, don't care whether I still love you or not,just take me as a close friend,a friend that know you better... a friend that you could trust. I just want to be around you,to share your problems,to help,to remind you to smile. I'll smile every time when I think of your chubby grins.... always being so lovely to me.

I found another place to make myself feel better and to make you feel better too. I don't know why,I hope you will find it one day,but not now. When the time comes, you will find it,and only if you're being patience enough.

Perhaps,you will get suffer,very frustrated when you suddenly recall me,a person that make you feel so suffer even when you don't love her anymore. I just want to say sorry about that,I really didn't mean to behave like this,but I have made you go crazy. Sorry.

You might think sorry is useless,and it doesn't matter to you anymore. But,please,don't get angry okay? Just take as,I'm childish, or naive,forgive me this lil evil girl.

*one day,a hamster crawls around,and it falls down.* hehe...^^

Maybe you don't need me anymore since you have found your new friends,but I reassure you, I'll always be here...no matter what. :)

Can I still sms you when my toe pain? :P

Love,

seow wei.